the concept of justification gets me every time. why is it that we need to justify being sad or happy or indifferent or a mixture of them all? sometimes i feel like i just want to absorb everything. just listen to some indie mix tape in my room with candles, preferably during a summer rainstorm late at night, and take in the moment for all that it is. i wish i could have someone sitting next to me, though; someone who really understands and can even share the moment with me. because i think that sometimes it’s okay to not know things. to just be. and have that be alright for now.

time keeps moving and it’s scaring me because i feel like i can never keep up and things are going to change before i’m ready to face them. and everybody else seems to have a clearer picture of what they want out of life and i’m still wondering and trying to pick up the pieces for myself.

i seem to live for the hype of summer freedom. or maybe it’s just the concept of summer that i love most. the idea of possibilities: that i actually have the chance to do great things with great people and make great memories to tell people at a later date. i want to be the girl in the pictures laughing and smiling with incredible stories to tell. stories about dancing in the pouring rain and spinning with friends in the starlight till we all fell down and ridiculous nervy conversations with strangers whose faces escape me.

maybe i’m secretly afraid i’m always too late. with everything.

i think that maybe, without even knowing it, i am that person.

i firmly believe that it’s never too late.
i’m not jaded yet. i’m here and i’m alive and i’m ready for greatness.
you can’t feel it in your hands, you have to feel it in the depth of your bones.
you have to breathe it and live it; you just can’t fake passion.